After her marriage is shattered by betrayal, Debra turns to alcohol, descending into addiction. Despite her efforts to maintain sobriety, she becomes entangled in a toxic relationship with an enabler who subjects her to emotional abuse, manipulation, and coercive control.



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(00:00 ) listen with caution

(00:16 ) next on lovelustfear

(01:38 ) about debra

(02:18 ) debra’s story

(27:03 ) questions & answers

(34:50 ) closing thoughts

(35:36 ) charity & organizations

(36:15 ) submit your story

(36:26 ) disclaimer



quotes



“...but the end of that marriage is where I learned to equate chemicals with avoiding pain…alcohol became a problem pretty quickly for me.” - Debra



“I just like continued to choose worse and worse partners along the way because I lost my self-respect.” - Debra



“So, within record time, I'm like fired from my great job, already have given up the house that I had just re established. And so, at this point, I'm pretty realizing that I'm dependent on him.” - Debra



“Anything I told him, any vulnerability I shared with him would become his weapon the next time. It would be whatever he would control me with or, something to make me feel bad about.” - Debra



“And the closure will come when you finally see you are enough. Nobody else is going to make you more, you are fine as you are. and it's not something that you can just read a self-help book and get there, but you know, there's people that can help. Help you to see it.” - Debra



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National Institute on Alcohol Abuse and Alcoholism

https://www.niaaa.nih.gov/alcohols-effects-health/niaaa-middle-school/helpful-resources



The mission of the National Institute on Alcohol Abuse and Alcoholism is to generate and disseminate fundamental knowledge about the adverse effects of alcohol on health and well-being, and apply that knowledge to improve diagnosis, prevention, and treatment of alcohol-related problems, including alcohol use disorder, across the lifespan.



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Text: START to 88788 

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